PSYCHIATRIST:I want to begin by filling in this checklist. It's a trauma checklist. We'll go through it together and then I'd like you to fill it in by yourself.
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PSYCHIATRIST: On the first page there are questions about the past, about what happened. You can indicate if you've experienced it yourself, if you've seen it or if you've heard about it. On the other pages there are questions about the trauma symptoms. Have a good look through them.
BORIS: Feeling guilty, feeling as though the traumatic experiences are happening again. Recurrent nightmares. Being ashamed, yes, yes. All of that. Yes.
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BORIS: Actually, there's a great chance that they'll be sending me back, so there really is no need to begin all this. It will mean my death, if I go back. No, seriously. I should have been dead already. But I'm a bad person, so that's why I'm still alive. The good always die first.
PSYCHIATRIST: Why do you think you're a bad person, Boris?
BORIS: That's why I'm here, isn't it? That's what you're going to find out. Aren't you? What I did and why and what I should have done. But I can't do that. Because then I'll have to tell the whole story all over again, and you shouldn't ask me to do that. I just want to sleep. So very very much. I'm always, awake. And I'm so incredibly tired. I'm nothing any more, I'm not a person, I'm not a fighter, not a son, nor a brother, I'm just deep down tired.
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